YUNIERELLA.

Dead tired!

Since my maid ran away a few weeks back, my whole family became the house maids, doing house chores now and then but when it comes to cleaning and tidying up the house, Ma would call some cleaners to come over to our house and get it done. And so she did today BUT the cleaner left early because apahal entah. Ada orang datang rumah dia? Something like that. EISH! Ended up, my whole family had to mop, sweep and scrub the whole house. Ha ha. I felt like I was Cinderella for the evening except I'm wearing better clothing of course :D I was scrubbing the kitchen floor using 3 sponges with a drained out brain due to trial results. It was fun! BAHAHA.

Why was it fun? I slided here and there using my knees and now I have bruises because of the kitchen tiles. Ha ha. Bimbo.

ME: Maaa look! Weeee~ *slide & slide & slide*
MA: Astagha. You're enjoying this aren't you?
LEE: *smack her head* Ya Allah!

Reaction of a lazy ass.

kucing kau buat pe 2?
melancap ke ape???
haha..this week ktorang beraya umah awk..
about 14 monkeyyysss..
- Bna

This actually gave me an absolute, sheer shock. Haha.

Whine some more.

I think I bother about other people's feelings too much, waayyy more than a normal person should be. I'm not stating that I'm a very caring person but whenever I do something I desire and turns out it would hurt someone else's feelings, I would just put my priorities aside and care about that someone more than myself. My feelings matter less than others'. Well, towards a number of particular homosapiens of course but I'm being extremely extreme here.

I think it's hard to be ignorant at certain points. Mine peaks at the lowest, no?

Humour me.

ME: Pa, ada harimau tak dalam tu?
PA: Hah? Harimau? Dalam mana??
ME: Ahah. Dalam Hutan Simpanan tu haa!
PA: Oh yang tu!
ME: Ada ke?
PA: Ada harimau simpanan kot?

She's delicate.

Although love keeps beckoning me
I stand on my ground and still
Hoping the blessings would cease because;
I'm just so selfish
I'm just too foolish
I'm scared of giving in
I'm afraid of holding on
That's why I'm all alone


I'm extremely traumatized
Dear pasts scarred my heart
Wounds would eventually heal
But a darkened vulnerable heart?
The burden of this lock is unfathomable
And so I ask the Almighty,
When shall this chest opens wide?
When shall the everlasting key rise upon?

There. It's your cue, God.

Lets play ignorant.

LEE: Haish. Yunie always minum Coke, kan? Coke Coke Coke Coke. Semalam jea dah more than 2 botol besar Coke. It's not good lah. Pastu, you're constantly taking seafood like, now? You're eating scallop. Seafood ni high in cholestrol tahu. Coke tu, rosak kidney nanti, dah tak function. Yunie tak rasa yang Yunie akan mati cepat ke?
ME: (after a long pause) On the way balik nanti pergi McD. Nak ice cream sundae.

But it's my favourite!

''So baby don't worry you
were my only
You won't be lonely
Even if the sky is falling down"

Jay Sean - Down, such a catchy catchy catchy song, don't you think so?

I really need to STOP being judgemental on every single person I meet/going to meet for the first time. I had a thought of this particular habit of mine before, on how I should down size my awful tingkah laku on judging just about everything on everyone I meet. Baaad habit Yunie, bad bad baaad habit.

I tend to judge that particular person totally the opposite way of how he or she really is. How the thought of that person is very arrogant, ignorant and plain douche-y would linger in my mind but just as soon I chat with that person, poof. It would change every single thing about how I imagined that person would actually be.

And hey, you're amazingly gorgeous. ;)

EST.EST.EST.

Hah! My past few days weren't that good, weren't that bad either, just amazingly plain awful.

Just in one week, I repeat, ONE WEEK, I had 3 nightmares about EST. Yes, EST. Why you might ask ? Hrm. Since there was no school on last Friday, EST paper was cancelled and it's due on next Monday. So yeah, one trial paper left for me. I can't stop thinking about that paper, ha ha. Some of you might think I'm such a lousy douche for getting nervous about EST paper but hell I don't know, I get this tingly feeling when I think about EST, and especially it's trial's EST paper. Bullocks.

And Izwan ain't making it any easier for me. Heh. You'll pay short pants, you'll pay! Just get those money ready for MY PIZZAS :)

She did it again!

MA: Lempeng.
ME: What the hell is lempeng?
MA: Pancakes.
ME: No. Lempeng is not pancakes.
MA: Then, what?
ME: Kek.. Pan? HAHA.
MA: Asshole!

She's in MRSM PC. What can I do?

Yunie Meow: youre like
Yunie Meow: throwing away freshly baked cookies!
fathin nabilah: the problem is i prefer bread than cookies
fathin nabilah: hahahah
fathin nabilah: best x best x

Because I'm plain idiotic.

I suffered a great lost today, done completely, double-handedly by me. Who on earth would torture him/herself for the sake of staying in the comfort zone? A plain dumbass would. Welcome to the club.

Enough said.

It's catchy.

Afiq Mohamaad: 3 motnhs
Afiq Mohamaad: months
Yunie Meow: wagagagaga
Yunie Meow: lama siuut
Yunie Meow: dah habis SPM kot time tu
Yunie Meow: hahahah
Afiq Mohamaad: luls
Afiq Mohamaad: chow the meow afiq nk sleepss
Afiq Mohamaad: krim salam ma pa

Low class ssslut!

Yunie Meow: am I a slut?
Yunie Meow: HAHAHA
Yunie Meow: what a question!
Yunie Meow: HAHA
fathin nabilah: of course la not
fathin nabilah: compare urself to n------ sari dee tuh
fathin nabilah: :))
fathin nabilah: 'n------ sari dee'
fathin nabilah: u're an angel
fathin nabilah: SHE's a slut

That made me feel better. Ha ha.

Hatred.

I don't know why but it feels utterly wrong. When I look back at my pasts, I just can't believe I've been through all this. I mean, I've dreamt about having it, I went through all those 'magical' moments I've been craving for and I've lost it in such a horrible, indescribable way. I regretted it ever so much that at one point I felt like I've totally lost everything I have, everything I valued, everything I loved.

But now, what I feel now is.. It's just so, WRONG. Sooo out of place. That I think, these feelings don't even deserve to overcome me. I think I've reached 'that' immortality point until these bullcrap that back then I saw as a fairytale are just mere.. Bullcrap to me. Nothing more than a pile of bloody wasted time on useless human beings who I shouldn't have try to be close at all to begin with.

How is that possible?

Embekk.

COUSIN ATEK: Akak! Adik dapat cat!
ME: Yap anak cat!
CA: Anak cat?
ME: Yess, anak cat! Kitten!
CA: Bukan anak kambing??
ME: Hah? o.O


LEE: I told her that..
ME: WHY on earth did you tell her anak kucing tuh anak kambing??
LEE: Because she won't stop asking me ni anak apa!
CA: Akak, ni anak kambing ke anak cat??
ME: Anak lembu. :))

Genes.

MA: Eee mengada Lini ni kan! Asal mandi jea air panas.
LINI: Dah sejuk, memanglah.
MA: But taking a cold shower at 11am?
ME: Dia macam tu, let it be la Ma.
MA: Dia ikut Papa dia lah tu.
ME: Pastu kenapa?
MA: Berangan macam orang London. Mandi air panas pagi pagi konon. Padahal dok membesar dekat ladang getah ni ha!
LINI: So..?
MA: Pergi tidurlah cunit!
ME: HAHAHA.

It's here.

Eid ul-Fitr.

The time of the year where kids begging around for money from aunties and uncles and relatives doesn't seem wrong at any point. The time of the year where people let themselves indulge in having guilty pleasures by sinking their teeth into uncountable amount of delicacies as a payback of holding them off for a month. The time of the year where firecrackers are heard all over the town, all the time, illegally and no one tend to actually care about it (except for cops and worried parents, no?).

For me?
The time of the year where I travel back to Melaka/Terengganu to sit back, relax and watch the day goes by every single minute without having a thought of anything but serenity and calm.... but no. Not this year.

It won't be that way for 2009. I can't relax knowing that I didn't do good for my trials. I can't relax knowing that SPM would be just so darn near. I can't relax knowing that I would be 18 the next time Eid comes around. I can't relax knowing that I'm getting older and I won't be called a school-girl no more sooner. But then again..

It's Eid so what the heck? :) I'm just gonna go crazy for it :)






Happy Eid people ! :)

Hah.

I should prolly kill a rat or slaughter it or something. Won't cause a drama that way, no? Either way, no one would notice except my cats, eh?



RAYA RAYA RAYA. Im in it just for the money. Heh. Not really looking forward to Raya THAT much anymore because you know.. After Raya, SPM is just so darn near.











Shoot me.

You DONT want to read.

Babiiiiiii pantat celaka! Bangsat betul!

WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO FUCKING PISS ME OFF HA? WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO BLOODY POKE ME? WHO THE BLOODY FUCKING ASSCRACK ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME?

OHMYGOD YOURE SUCH A PUSSY!

I AM JUST SO PISSED OFF BCSE THERE IS A PERSON IN THE WORLD WHO THINKS HE IS CREATED EVER SO GREATLY TO FUCKING PLAY WITH PEOPLE'S FUCKING HEAD JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE SOME DATO'S SON?! DUDE! GROW UP LAH! IF ONLY I COULD JUST @#$%^&*( YOU!

Pissed off, badly!

MOTHERFUCKER! IM SO EMBARRASSED THAT I ACTUALLY LET YOU DID THAT TO ME! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BULLSHIT!

Saddening.

It's sad how my family isn;t hosting an open house for this year. We've been having an open house for a few years straight and suddenly, NO OPEN HOUSE? Sigh.

Siapa yang nak datang beraya rumah saya, mintak tolong inform saya awal awal lah yea. I'm always asleep when my friends came by to 'beraya'. So, to avoid getting plain water and some junkies as kuih raya and an awful sleepy looking face in the afternoon, inform me a few days earlier! :)
DISCLAIMER: You won't get duit raya by raya-ing at my house. Thank you very much. :)

And hey, I can't wait for angpows from my aunts and uncs! Hah, Melaka, here I cooommee! :)

She lost it.

ME: Eh Along! Niii, cerita apa nii?
LEE: Apaa?
ME: Alaah, orang jahat dia pasir pasir ni!
LEE: Manaa?
ME: NIII! Dkat TV ni! Peter Pan eh?
LEE: Peter Pan?? Spider Man lah!
ME: Hek?

I couldn't stop questioning myself up to now, why on earth did I say it's PETER PAN when I saw a dude in a blue and red costume hanging upside down of a building on telly?

What Ma thinks of the PM.

LEE: Rindu Rizman lah! Whylah Kak Mawar kena pindah Dubai.
MA: Jahat Kak Mawar hari tu tak bawak dia datang.
LEE: Why la semua orang nak pindah ke luar Msia?
MA: Because of the PM.
LEE: Whats wrong with the PM?
MA: Because he likes to wear PINK LIPSTICK!
ME: Eww. Najib gay.
MA: I wonder if Najib and Rosmah gaduh every morning rebut lipstick? Haha!

Malls alert.

I don't know why but I have a slight feeling that I don't really like for the fact that Cafu (however you spell it lah, I just pronounce it as C A F U) is being build up in Bandar Tun Hussein Onn. I think having Jaya Jusco/AEON Cheras Selatan and Econsave plus KEDAI PERABOT BALAKONG near Bandar Tun Hussein Onn is fair enough to make this residental area busy. And there's like, Lake Valley, the Town Park of Bandar Tun Hussein Onn. Tonnes of shop lots there. Yet Cafu is there, near Lake Valley. Don't you think BTHO would get so much busier?

Don;t know why. But I just don't like it. Pa was like, "HAH. Semua ada dekat Bandar Tun Hussein Onn ni. Toksah kua jauh jauh dah!"

I think that's the reason? :S Ugh.

Jail break!

Just now was hilarious. Ha ha. Me, Sashot, Aliah, Lenda, Filzah and a few others ran away from school at 1030am since 3472/1 paper ended at 10am and there are no papers after recess. Hah! We were like a bunch of pendatang haram, trying to escape from the cops or something.

"Eeehh guard datang! Guard datang!"

I was such a wuss I called Pa to wait in front of the gate LITERALLY since it would be considered that I have license to go back home early. Aliah was brave, she ran to the gate, unlocked it and escaped for her life. The others followed her footsteps and ran like lil chickens being chased by a sly fox or something. Hah, I went to the gate only when Pa got out of the car, Ha ha.
WHAT A WUSS!

And hey, only EST papers left! ;)

Paolo.

He's from Italy.

...and so he siad HARLOW :)
Okay that was random, I know. And I love it.

God, it's excruciating ! Waiting for my trials to end, argh. Why must JPWP set the EST papers on Friday? Shasfirawfardwier. Sashot and others get their freedom two days earlier than I do! Demmit. Ngaa.

Eh.

It irritates me the most when I have to do something that I extremely, utterly dislike yet I have to do it due to myself. Yes. Myself. For me. Because of me. I'm the reason. Baah. Basically, I'm doing something against my own will when at the first place, it's something that I really want! Hah, padah.

I am more than disappointed with myself. Because of this insecurity I feel, I drag myself into more emotion-related-problems when it's been a long time since I got that kind of problem. Hah. Cheer up.

Udder. LOL.

Lets pretend.

SOMETHING SO FUCKED UP IS IN MY FREGGIN LAME-O IMBECILIC BRAIN && I CAN'T TICK MYSELF TO GO AND STUDY.

How pathetic is that?

...and I though I was right.

All along, I'm just so confident with what I know, with what I've observed, with what I've seen, with what I've watched, with what I've looked at, with what I've collected, with what I've analysed, with what I'm done cracking.

Sadly, I'm hypothetically wrong.

I was wrong about you. I thought I knew you well, inside out but hey, there's a lot more to you than it meets the eye (eceh). And yes, I am in utter disappointment with myself. Sigh.

Paper 4541/2 was being a big jerk. Another experiment gone wrong, bloody wrong.

People change.

I stumble upon this in my MySpace comments (Sept 13 09). Membuatkan aku tergelak kecil di hati buat seketika. Lol.

Page 405.
Mar 9, 2006 10:08 PM
yelah aku guner lah bhs pasar malam, yg kau ingin2kan tu, ..


and this from page 345.

May 29, 2006 2:27 PM
1 of d members 2...ala...yang cute2 tu....teke lah...huhu...

Guess from who? Ha ha.

Nostalgic II

It's pulling me way back,
It's stopping me from marching on,
It's creepy and just too dark,
It's successful in making me alone.
You were a dear to me but you just WERE.
Pasts are pasts so I bid you goodbye.

I think I need some motivation.

STUDY LAH CHOOYYYYY!

You got exam maa!
It's trial maa!
You no study aaa,
You get dumb dumb maa.

Moveit.

It works!

Okay, Pa's right. The Ogawa chair would help me become less stressed out. Hah.

I was studying physics and my back started to ache like hell again, so did my neck. So I used the Ogawa chair. Heh, to come and think of it, the last time I used that massage chair was like.. Before my PMR examination? Quite some time ago, ay?

And so, my journey begins from my study table to the upper living room, where THE chair is located, lol. I pressed the Automatic Programme button and then a seductive (joking) lady voice said "Please rest your head at the headrest to locate the position of your shoulder". I was like, "Wah! Ada suara olang!" First time I used the automatic programme lah, kata kan. Haha.

Due to the massages for half an hour, I got something that I should have gotten 2 months ago! Bahahha. ;)













Im eating oreo. ;p

After a while.

Nothing could pull my break,
Nothing can halt this,
Emotions running in my veins,
Blood rush for every millisecond,
Burying me deep ground,
Throwing me sky high,
I can't resist to, hesitate to..

Crave for you. Wanting you. Own you.

You know who ;)

__________________________________

I think Eminem would make a good lawyer. Don't you think so? Haha. Physics drove me nuts. Enough said. ;)

My back hurts.

Because of doing History essays. Even my neck! Heh, I really need to use that Ogawa chair. Nonetheless, it felt good after sitting for History paper. Felt like a burden is gone, for good :) History is so0o0o0o History. Ha ha. Just a few minutes after the paper started, there was an announcement:

Maaf kerana mengganggu. Perhatian kepada pelajar lelaki 5Amanah yang berada di luar kelas, sila bergerak ke kelas anda dengan kadar segera. Kertas Sejarah sedang dijalankan. Ulang suara, -repeats-.

I find this amusing. Ha ha. Ouh, not to forget, quote of the day, Time is over! This woke me up in a laughing state when I slept after finishing History paper 2. Aduyai. This is just too much. Sashot and Aliah loved this. Devils :D

Seven bloody papers to go and Raya would be waiting for my arrival just around the corner. Rendang Ayam, here I come! :)

BOOM!

Addmaths partially blew up my brain in such an extravagant way that I couldn't really describe, to let you people REALLY understand what happened in my tiny brain on that particular self-moment. Literally. The first question was fine, Simultaneous Equations. He he. And then it just gets harder and harder.. As usual. Fishnets.

And then Madam sweetie 'ol sweet BIOLogy came along. It makes my head AND mind AND brain go bonkers! Which equally means BIOL TAHAP DEWA UNTA MATI BERANAK DALAM PERIGI LAH !

Pissed off pissed off pissed. With myself.

Shut the laptop down and go study, Bimbo. Ha ha.

And I find that 090909 doesn't give any significant meaning to me. Maybe I'm just heartless for the moment. Oh well, different people, different feelings, different point of views. Ciao. :)

It's something rather unusual.

Aku sedar aku siapa. Aku sedar tempat aku dekat mana. Aku sedar status aku. Aku sedar darjat aku. Aku faham diri aku. Aku faham sangat tahap aku. Aku tahu had aku. Aku tahu kebolehan aku. Aku tahu kelemahan aku. Aku tahu aku dipandang macam mana. Aku tahu semua itu.

Tetapi,

Kau tu siapa?

Kau tu siapa nak mengata pasal aku? Kau tu siapa nak mengumpat aku? Kau tu siapa nak mengarah-arahkan aku? Kau tu siapa nak memburukkan aku? Kau tu siapa nak mereka cerita pasal aku? Kau tu siapa nak paksa aku? Kau tu siapa nak bercakap tentang aku? Kau tu siapa nak ambil tahu tentang aku?

Sudah terang lagi bersuluh engkau dengki, bukan?

Go back home and mirror yourself, stupid dickhead.

Move it.

I;m doing everything everso perfectly BUT studying.

Why?
The heart just wouldn't budge.

My days are becoming dull and dull even more for certain reasons. I supposed I'm getting less animated everyday as the days go by quickly when I do things. It's not that I don't act/do things the way I did before, I just down-sized it a bit as this is the trial week/month. Less playing around, fooling all the time, annoy those around me. Less less LESS!

Work it biatch!

Memoir.

After reading Bean's entry about titik titik perjuangan,

I'm wanting something.
I'm dying to own something.
I'm yearning to have it.
I'm craving for it.
I'm longing to have just a bit of it.

What is it ?

Sweet memories.

What comic did to her.

Lini: Adik nak baca comic lagi lah.
Me: Look at the bookshelf. Banyak.
Lini: But dah baca banyak kali!
Me: Habis tu? Nak pergi 7-11 now, beli?
Lini: Jum?
Me: Kau gila?
Lini: Apa salahnya?
Me: It's like 1230am right now, Lini.
Lini: So?
Me: Like Ma and Pa bagi keluar!
Lini: They're asleep. *grins*

It made my lil sis scream!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

Hisham ran into my car and sat at the back for a few mins! HA HA! :D

And so did Dhinesh and Shashi too.
Wasn;t expecting that at all. Ha ha. Lini just wouldn't stop screaming from the time they got out of the car til we reached home.

Kecik kecik dah gatal. :)

Just like her sisters ;)

It's my 100th post by the way. Yiippee. LOL

Our Mission :)

Bahasa Melayu I and II is over.
English I and II is done.
Biology III is ka-pish.
Mathematics I is history.

8 more subjects to go, 17 more papers.

Go! Fight! Win! :)

I miss cheerleading, ha ha.